After the events of early this morning and Maureen’s general discontent with being ‘baby sat’ by carers I have cancelled tonight’s sit. I fear that going out tonight might just be a red rag to a bull and give Maureen another opportunity to vent her frustration. I’m hoping that an evening of TLC might be just what the doctor ordered and lead to a good night’s sleep for both of us.
Although I am missing my Buddhist meditation class tonight all is not lost. I managed to spend a lovely hour this morning watching some amazing teaching by Dekyong the Spiritual Leader of the New Kadampa Tradition in the UK on YouTube.
I know that Dekyong and others would see my decision as an act of kindness. Leaving Maureen in the company of a carer tonight would potentially trigger further distress.